being lazy on the early May

Hell’o People, how are ya? Good? Excellent!! 🙂 I’m fine too but not that fine. I think I should declare that I got very much absences of attending my classes this week. And I think this week is my laziest week, baaahahaha!

On Monday : I have a class at 9 every Monday, and on this Monday, I woke up at 8.40 (my fault, I know!) and at the same time, I did disappointment to my friends (my 3 teammates). I should have given a presentation about mood disorders. We were not presenters actually, we’re revisers that have a task to meliorate their (presenters) paper-work, a way better than what they’ve already done, maybe we put some trustable theories; add various researches or case examples of that disorder. Bloody shit, I woke up late that morning (8.40, did I tell you firstly? LOL. I’m not proud!) Caused by being-late-to-go-sleeping and I could not reach a REM sleep along the night. My body has been fucking killing me since Last Saturday, and you know when we’re sick, there will be a phase where we can’t sleep as good as when we’re fine, and I was on that phase. I felt like my head is whirling confoundedly, my body divided into the pieces, and I can’t breathe easily. *roaring gratingly*  fiuuh, what a day?!

On Tuesday : Things were going well, i felt. I had a class at 7 (and i was not late). just a half of students came (or maybe only a few).  Many of my classmates had a data intake with their subject. they were countenanced by my lecturer to not-coming to the class. i have had it on Sunday.  In the afternoon, i had some feedbacks from my lecturer about my experimental research’s proposal, and the deadline (to finish it until it’s really reaaalllyy finished) will be on 25th – 29th of  May. OMG!!!

On Wednesday : I was still sick. I couldn’t get my body’s up, although my eyes were just opened widely. I sent a text message to my friend telling her that I couldn’t and wouldn’t come. Then I fell asleep. Thank God it was a good sleep. At that sleeping time, I could reach my REM sleep. I promised myself not to be late or absent tomorrow. It’s not good for my uni life.

On Thursday : I did GOOD. Hahahaa. I came on time, although there was no class because my lecturer wanted to hear our experience about being a counselor. I haven’t met my counselee (client) yet, actually my first day being a counselor will be on next Monday (pray for me, guys! :D), so I kept the silence and listened to them (my friends). They have such a commendable experience to share (to learn, of course). So many children (or teenagers) have various unfortunate lives.  But only a couple of things we can do to help them. Even worse, the only person who can help them is they. *is it worse, or inevitable? or both? or not any thing?*

On Friday : another late waking up hahahah!. I’ve got a sleeping problem (agaiinn), and I cursed my sickness harshly. Umm.. But I gave heed to my MOW (clinical interview methodology for diagnosis, blablablaaa..) class, and next week I’ll have a presentation. Ew! After a class, I had a fun meeting with my friends. My peer group when I was on a high school. They were terribly boosting my mood to the highest (read : super happy, euphoric, larger-than-life).

I recognize what has just happened this week, and then I spontaneously laugh. “Poor me”, me said silently. I had to battle with some bastard-ing conditions that run simultaneously and make me feel dumb as well. However, I thank God. 😀



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Sarah needs …

I’m tagged by neno to do this homework. oh my gosh this is so funny, maybe this is the funniest tag in my blog-writing’s history. thank you neno.. =)

the rules are :

1. Open Google

2. Type “your name needs” (for example: “sarah needs” – don’t forget the brackets!) in the search tab

3. Click search

4. Write down the top 10 results.

And the best 10 results :

Sarah needs to get her life back and establish herself as the person in charge. (I’ve got my life back already. No, I think my life has never gone far away from me, it’s on my hand permanently)

Sarah needs to set up her experiment by finding subjects (hey, how do you know? My experimental assignment wants me to find at least 40 subjects, WTF?)

Sarah Needs A Cold Shower (NO, thanks. Hihihi!)

sarah needs A fun post today because last night was a bit depressing (shut up! I was sleeping last night, nothing depressing)

SARAH NEEDS YOUR HELP PLEASE!!! (Yes please. Tell me where I can get a pair of flat shoes, anyone? I really need that, with reasonable price and good quality, even branded, hahaha! *materialistic side of sarah*)

Sarah needs sponsors to compete (what kind of championship? Eating crisp?)

Sarah needs a miracle (being alive and loved are the miracle, I think it’s enough, for now and ever)

Sarah needs a date, maybe some fun. (Where’s and who’s the guy? Guy, come to mama, hahahah!)

Sarah needs to kick him in the nuts (oh holy cow! it’s too insulting and cruel. I hate violence anyway. How if he can’t have a baby then? His wife must be sad and regret because she married him, ROFL!)

Sarah needs to hand him one of those weapons that went off without warning. (What the hell is here talking about? Where are the weapons?)

well those are the top 10 results, which are shivering my stomach by unstoppable producing laughter, LOLOLOL.  i pass this homework to : nitia, u-ung, and whoever wants to do it. i’ll see you guys later, mmuah!


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home decor, based on your traits.

Hello buddies, how are you doing there? Simply fine, huh? Great! Well finally I’m back after had a long journey. I didn’t. I just faced my  jerky mid semester test, and It has finished now so I can go back to concern for myself fully. Actually I’m not really sure for what I have done for the tests, I often did crap, and I think next I have to deal with many unsatisfying results. Whatev-fuck.

At the moment I’m typing with my mom’s lappy, my lappy has a trouble (uh-oh, we’re in trouble .. ) so I brought it to the IT centre to get it repaired, maybe it will be fixed 2 weeks later (OMG, why it takes so long?). I’m here up to post a tag. According to Nitia the tag-giver, there will be an interior design that represent our personality (that’s sooo psychology, hahaha, ew!). Should I give a brief description about my personality? Based on the theory of 4 big types of personality, I’m mixed melancholy (60%) and sanguine (40%) personality.

Melancholic often has got some inhibited-kind of traits, like introversion, usually avoid people if on a bad feelings, don’t really like to be a centre of attention, have a low level of social boldness (we often say it : shyness), or prefer to be ‘behind the scene’. They like to be an independent person, being alone, and really enjoy themselves as an individual (seems they are individualist, but back to the combination of personality they have).  Almost Melancholia people are perfectionist. They have (too) low tolerance of failure, pessimistic, so they tend to do anything perfectly in order not to be failed in any aspect of their life. That’s melancholy’s characteristics.

Sanguinity is the opposite. The sanguine is popular, has a good quality of extroversion, NEED to be a centre of attention, NEED to be adored and applauded, love talking, love to show off anything they have, and really care about their performance and appearance. They usually show their feelings, and they belong to their friends (or their friends belong to them. haah, confused!), simple : they can’t smile without friends. Many people consider it’s a kind of dependency, suppose to be true, yeaa suppose not to be true.  They are very lively, fun loving, agree, like to meet new people, like to contribute in a group or more. They are so public.

So, the summary of my description of personality is : I’m equally extro and intro, depends on the situation I meet. I’m a perfectionist person who has a low (enough) tolerance of failure. I’m a good speaker as good as when I have to be on ‘a backstage’. I’m dying to be ordered , … and I’m a privacy’s cop. I always save my and others privacy due to our comfort. I’m a pessimistic, rrgh!  I do really care about my action and my look-like. I can show a don’t-bother-me look, but I can as well grab your hand and don’t want to let you go away from me and stop being my friends. For me, freedom is everything, i’ll do what i want to do and not what i hate. but i’ll let myself be around me, will be mad if someone strange  comes without knocking, and i won’t bodge other people’s business if they don’t let me to. That’s all.

Can you guess what the interior design that represent those traits? Here are the pictures then:

1. the library


because this will be so important for me, i put this first before the second. i would like to spend my time alone without anyone around me. it’ll help for get myself relaxed, calm myself down after had a hectic day. i’ll put an aromatherapy there, read a book or listen to the music, write anything that comes from my brain, do self-introspection, and maybe i’ll fall asleep. LOL. i like the bookshelf there, it can place your books into an order. order = perfection, ROFL.

2. Living room

living room

although this is less important, but still.. I-M-P-O-R-T-A-N-T  for an ideal house. you can greet anyone who visits your house in the living room, and look at the picture! you can see a private living room but it has the wide windows that use to (give you a sunshine, of course. remember, human’s need of VITAMIN D, hahaha!) see outside the room. you’ll be able to know what happen out there, wave your hand to anybody that pass your house, and give a smile. great for your social life, isn’t it?

well guys, do you think it’s representing or not? do you think i have explained clearly or not? you tell it. hihhi..

ok, run out of time, i got to go.

i’m tagging : neno and cellini, and anybody who wants to do this. have a great weekend, guys! rock your weekend!!!!


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chewing gum and memory

Hello all, well how was your week? It’s almost a week since my last post. Yeah this is my mid semester test weeks; I have to abandon my blog and my other guilty pleasures. (But, Own a blog isn’t a kind of guilty pleasure, is it?)

Now I’m googling to seek many theories about my experimental (kind) assignment. It’s boring and interesting at the same time. My experiment is standing under the construct of memory. Why I use memory for my construct? Because memory is capable to be measured, and it has its own standardization, so we don’t need to make any standard score., they have made it already. My team (has 5 personnel include me) and I decided to have a research problem: Do chewing gum have any influences to the short term memory?. For me it’s not really exciting, but yet I’m excited, hahaha! The fundamental reason is that we have already found the phenomenon at my faculty, describes about the condition, which is demanding the students to have a good memory, in order to store and/or recall all the lessons, especially at the 1st year studying. So many theories we need to know them on exact.

gumkitty enjoys the gum, hahah!

Nah, I have just read about the theory of memory, telling that chewing gum may improve our memory. If your cognitive skills are not at their best, you may just need a stick of gum to boost your brain power. Research at the University of Northumbria and the Cognitive Research Unit in Reading, England, shows that the repetitive chewing motion positively influences thinking, memory, and other mental tasks. *sigh* Andrew Scholey of the University’s Human Cognitive Neuroscience Unit presented his team’s findings at the 2001 British Psychological Society’s annual conference in Blackpool. He explained that “the mild increase in heart rate may improve the delivery of oxygen and glucose to the brain, enough to improve cognitive function.”. Additionally, chewing gum induces a surge of insulin due to the mouth watering in anticipation of a meal. “It is known that there are insulin receptors in areas of the brain important for learning and memory,” Scholey said.

Then what are we going to do with this jerky research? We ascertain the accuracy and reliability of this theory when it demonstrates practically (don’t forget that theory and practice are not that determined and alike, they may change, they may be different). The experiment will have 30-40 samples from my faculty, and they will be sorted into 2 groups. Each group will have the different treatment. Group A will chew a gum, and group B will not. Both of those groups will have a task to remember a phrase, or few rhymes of poetry (we’ll choose which task is better, as soon as we need, ahaah!). After remembering (and storing into their memory), they have to fill in the blank, about the poetry or the phrase that they’ve already remembered. Hope with this experiment, we really find it out then.

This is my 1st time doing an experiment. I’m both curious and anxious. =((((

PS : if you want to learn more about chewing gum and memory, you can click this site, or this.


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awards from igna and u-ung

woaah i have 3 awards in one time, thank you thank you thaaank you friends! *kisses

first award comes from Igna


the Rules :

1. put the logo

2. put the link of the blog who has given you this award

3. give this award to those 10 people who are friendly and inspiring, put their blog’s link also.

4. tell them you’ve given this award by leave a message on their blog.

the second award (which has the similar rules) comes from U-ung


and the last award comes from her too..


i have to put my bad habits into a list, here they are :

1. moody

2. too-hard thinking

3. smoking

4. sometimes i become to indecisive person

5. pessimistic

i give theses awards to : audrey, boot, ella, ippa, meyriska, karin, priska, tika, vanessa, and wahyu ..


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(Honest Scrap) Award From Nitia

Hello again, people.. woohoo I’m back, I always feel glad when I write things, because I know I can’t do it that often on weekdays. College, yeah what else?

Anyway guys, I got a honest scrap award from my friend, Nitia, I thanked by giving her a smooch, hihi..


The Rules :

The Honest Scrap award comes with a caveat or two.

Firstly, you have to tell your readers ten things about you they may not know, but that are true.  Secondly, you have to tag 10 people with the award.

My 10 uncensored things you may not know are :

1.  I wish I could have a harp, own harp, and present some on-stage performances with playing harp, but I think it won’t come true, harps are having a high-enough level of difficulty, and too expensive to buy for an amateur harpist like me. I adore Maya Hasan (a local harpist from my country) and Julia Thornton (a harpist from Atlanta), I’ve seen Hasan’s performance 3 times, and I was amazed all over again.

2.  I love women. Women are beautiful, in every single way. Their body, their face, their hair, their maternal behaviors, kind-heart, I don’t care whether they are feminine, masculine or androgyny, all same. I’m proud to be a woman and I’ll fight for women’s life someday. Humans cannot stay alive and breathe if there are no women. Loving women doesn’t mean I’m a Lez girl, hahaha.. (Although sexual orientation *homo, hetero, bi* is now a way to choose)

3.  Recently, I really love shopping. I’ve already bought 2 pairs of shoes, some tops, jackets, books, and now I’m craving for a pair of broken-white sneakers.. 😉

4.  I have been struggling with some family problems since don’t know when. My parents have divorced when I was 12, and living in a broken home family is not that easy (but we’re going to be fine, no need to hyperbolize). My mom and dad are not (and would never be) good parental caregivers. They are too busy to think about their grownup children and as the time goes by, I don’t really need their quality times, I just need their trust. Really!

5.  (Correlated with and caused by thing above) I admit myself being independent. My mum indulged me in order to be an independent person who not hanging her life on a man, or other people. She often says (either directly or indirectly), “stand on your feet, don’t beg, don’t be pampered, you’re not a baby anymore. Go working and there’s no time to be lazy!”, and her lines are driving me enough not to have any form of dependence.

6.  I’m now in love with someone, hahahaha.. He’s my senior at high school, and oh my gosh, he’s so good looking and such a kind person! Wish me luck, hahahah!

7.  I love collecting lingerie from several famous brands. There’s nothing guiltier than spending my unacceptable amount of money to buy lingerie, when apparently I need that money to pay my outbound fee, to buy some college books, and to repair my hand phone. Doh! (I’m sorry mum, dad!)

8.  I’m a number one fan of ice cream and chocolate. When will I have my own ice cream factory?

9.  I can’t ride a bicycle. I have a traumatic event with bicycle, and after that event, I have never tried to ride again. I think I forget how to ride, haha!

10.  I can’t leave my house without wearing my pink blush on. My cheeks are chubby and I’m not really glad to it. I cover my chubby-cheeks with blush on. Besides, I think blush on (and lipstick) is the easiest makeup to use.

I think now I have to pee. Hahahaha, hey it’s an uncensored!! Ok now I’m tagging : Neno, Sherryta, U-ung, Audrey Gabriella, Ayu, and everyone who getting interested to do this homework..  Bye all, mwah! =)


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glad to see you again here.. =)

Hello folks, how are you doing there? I’m now on wordpress, my blog on is no longer updated, I can’t sign in (means I can’t do posting), but I still can open my blog without sign in though. I don’t even know what the wrong is. I’ve tried to sign in at other laptops but no differences. The worst is, I can’t import my posts from blogger to wordpress, so I feel like I have a new blog, hmm.. but it doesn’t really matter, anything may go wrong and have some errors, so yeaah, transferring my blog to this site is no way problem. =)

Finally I meet Saturday, and Saturdays are always relaxing me, after 5 days with full of occupations, assignments, and hard thoughts, then on Saturdays, I have not to do them. Thank you, Saturday! I’m thinking to have a good nap, because I only slept for about 4 hours per day in the past 3 days, I’m afraid of being sick because on the next 2 weeks I’ll have my mid semester test. I’m estimating I’ll do a hard work for this mid, the take home tests are so difficult and tiring, and so the writing tests. If I’m sick, I’ll lose my effort to do good, and I don’t want to lose anything at the moment. I’m now on an ambition to increase my GPA. Sicknesses in any form are not excused presently.

Ah shit, my eyes can’t compromise, I’m going to take a nap, I don’t want to be late to meet my friends tonight, I think I’ll go sleep for 3 hours then wake up and prepare for Saturday night. Have a great weekend, all.. I’ll write again tonight or after I get up.. bye!

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